||[Apr. 28th, 2005|11:27 pm]
im sobbing right now from this emotional strain |
put on my brain
decisions which will could alter my life for a year
and then the rest of my life.
the rest of my life.
every decision makes us stronger,
every experience makes us wander.
why can't i just fucking decide..
because i want to defy the odds, and prove that i dont have to fit in the social norms of
12 years of school, college,
jobs yaddity yaddity
i want to go to college more aware, having drunk legally for a period of a few months, ready to settle down and learn after a year's break
but also, i want to be stimulated now, now now and surrounded by intelligetn young adults from all over the country and world. i want to go to colorado and get credit for going abroad...
and yet, and yet..
fuck...its april 28th....